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weekend..

2011-12-18T06:22:00.000+08:00

hey people..

ok, once again i have a long weekend break..
Saturday-REST
Sunday- OFFDAY
Monday-OFFDAY

my last flight got delayed so this what happened,, it is like a domino effect.. from 2 OFF days, i now have 3 free days.. AWESOME..

so what better way to spend the free times thn lepaking with my buddies and also clubbing.. ni baru sampai rumah from dinner with Zareen and clubbing with Megat..

tomorrow.. ehem ehem.. ill keep it as a secret for now..

rebirth.

2011-12-13T01:26:00.000+08:00

dah lama dah blog ni kosong.. sepi.. bersarang.. empty.. lonely.. unattended..
put it in whatever language u want to.. it will still mean the same thing.

it is not that i dont want to, trust me, i have tons of story to share and i really want to share it here.. but unfortunately i am too exhausted to sit and type one by one.. i am not a very hardworking person. i am only hardworking at work.

so what i will do is i will give a crash course on the series of important events in my life..:

LOVE

of course this will be the first damn thing to talk about la kan? i am still SINGLE.. haha.. i had too much fun being single that i dont want to have a bf yet.. *katanya*

i do go out on dates.. a lot of em.. tapi tak ramai yang mampu sweep me off my feet yet.. kalau ade pun, after that they turn out to hv certain attitude that turns me off. so REJECT and NEXT!!

what else to do right? i dont want to waste my time on losers.. i wasted 2 yrs on 1, not gonna waste anymore time on another.

so i am taking my heart and my time pretty seriously this time. not gonna waste anymore of my energy. PERIOD.

Career

i graduated from MMU a couple of months ago and i started working with AirAsia as a flight attendant since July this year. i love my job and i am loving every second of it..

i know people do talk about my career choice. but what the hell, i love what i am doing, i go to work with a smile and i come back exhausted with a smile carved on my face.. and in the end of the month.. KA-CHING!

what more can i ask? my mum and dad gets cheap airfares and they get to travel to see the world and that means the world to me since my mum is my hero.. i want to make her happy and see the world.. and everytime i come back from somewhere she'll ask me how was it and she gets super excited..

and as a son.. that makes me happy..

LIFE

my life as a whole.. i am a happier person now.. sometimes i do miss having someone to love.. but i have the greatest family in the world and i have my friends that loves me more than i can ask..

and no, it does not include ppl that are nice in front of me and bitch about me behind my back. i know who u are.. and u should be ashamed of urself. =.=

i am just going with the follow.. and i wish ppl around me would just pray for my success rather thn being so -ve all the time.. bcoz, that is all i do. i pray for ppl's success..

roughly that is what my life is all about.. i have to sleep now tomorrow i have to be up by 7 and be at the academy for my graduation.. :)

comeback..

2011-12-11T14:06:00.001+08:00

i am making a comeback.. soon..

almost there..

2011-10-08T02:00:00.000+08:00

hye readers..

this is my longest absent from writing anything here.. it is not i dont want to, trust me there is a gazillion things i want to tell you guys, especially with my training with AirAsia. but i just dont have the time..

the FA training had taken me by surprise. i tot it would be like a honeymoon training and a paid leave for us, but lord i am wrong. i have tests, assessments, training, exams and so many more things. and i do have to study and memorize so many god damn thing..

despite all that i am up by 6.30 with a smile on my face and uber excited to go for training..

this is my last week in the training, and next week is my exams. if i pass, ill start flying the following week. if not, ill be unemployed with a RM14,000 debt to AirAsia..

Lord Bless My Soul so that ill pass my exam!!

Nadiah Ali- Rapture.

2011-09-13T07:43:00.000+08:00

hey readers... i love this song. and i always tot that the voice was somesort of effect not knowing that she sounded like that in real life too.

loving it..

Eid.

2011-09-04T01:29:00.000+08:00

i guess, it is still not too late to wish a...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN

to all my beloved readers...

may all of you have a great and fabulous raya this time around with ur loved ones..

i MADE it.

2011-07-20T05:45:00.001+08:00

hey readers..

for the past couple of months, i have been going to a number of Airlines interview in order to chase my dream of being a Cabin Crew.. this had been my dream for a while.. but when i was with my ex he shut off the idea at the very moment i voice it..

so being the dumb lover i obliged. did it pay off? of course not. so all you people out there if your lover cannot support ur dream, then go find a new one!

ok, that is not why this post.
moving on...

i went to many walk in interviews for many airlines.. MAS, SIA, QATAR, EMIRATES even AIR ASIA... i didnt get in.. it was extremely tough.. you must posses great personality and a certain level of knowledge and confidence..

i almost gave up.. so on the 17th of July Air Asia had a walk in interview in Park Royal.. i didnt feel like going.. i have to admit i kinda got beaten down.. but thankfully my aunt pushed me to go.. so i just went. i pergi pun lambat.. it started at 9, and I reached there around 11 plus..

there were not that many people.. overall 400 people came.. and i was lucky number 300.. so i sat and waited. met a few friends that i met before in other interviews (Miss Kim, MH interview Penang) and made some new friends while waiting..

i was number 300 and when i was in the room they were calling number 140.. so another 160 more people to go.. surprisingly, i didnt have to wait that long.. it took like an hour plus before i was called (comparing to the 9 hours wait for the MH interview)

1st stage.

there were 2 interviewers, and i can see there were like 5 sets of interviewers. i was with interviewer number 2. the guy was Mr Terrance (sorry if i spelled the name wrongly). he is hot. he is super hot. he is with Air Asia X now... and.... ok moving on....

so the guy before me was interviewed for quite sometime.. he is from Air Asia and they had an issue with interdepartmental change thinggy. so i stood there for quite a while and that is when my nerves starts to kick in.. dammit lah!

when i was called i was all over the place. they asked me about my work now, my degree, a bit about my debating experience.. they checked my skin ( i was so nervous, the last time i didnt get in AK because my acne's scar was obvious) thankfully they were ok with it, no comments were made and they asked me to read the announcement in english.

i fumbled.

i know for normal people i did an ok job, but being a debater i assessed myself as i was reading it and i knew i could have done far better. so i am prepared to go back (the last time i read the announcement flawlessly and yet still got kicked out).

i waited for 5-7 minutes in the waiting room, and the results were in.. the key here is, if u got called with a large number of people, you are going home. as they were calling out the numbers, i was holding my bag and preparing to leave..

but nop.. my number was not called..

i was called by the guy to join another group and i was informed that i made it to the next round. it was like somebody threw a bucket of gold on my laps. (note: i never made tru the first round for these kind of interviews.)

2nd stage.

this is the English Proficiency test, you are given 25 MCQs and an essay to answer in 1/2 hour. for me this is my forte. the ENGLISH LANGUAGE and essay!

i was done with my essay in 5 minutes (oh puhlezz, i was in law school.. essay is like writing a short memo for me! lol! haha) and continued with the MCQs.. i checked and rechecked to make sure that it was perfect!

after passing up.. i got a letter informing to go to Air Asia Academy the next day for the 2nd day interview.!

2nd DAY.

i woke up early to beat the traffic.. traffic in cheras is crazy in the morning! i reached Air Asia Academy around 7.40, as we have to be there by 8.

as soon as i parked, there is this guy in front of me he keeps looking my way.. so i got off the car, and smiled. we got to know each other, his name is Kelvin from.... guess where..? SEREMBAN. my hometown.

so we immediately became buddies. trust me, it is nice to have someone to talk to in an airline interview.

3rd stage.

we were given a couple of minutes to get to know the person next to us and introduce the person in front of the panel and the entire crowd. for someone who has no oratory background this can be a pain in the A$$.

the key is to make your introduction as creative and as unique as possible.. everyone was hitting the same note and falling flat.. so i came up with a plan.. since the guy next to me, Orey, was from Penampang Sabah, so i asked him the nearest airport to his place and he said KKIA (Kota Kinabalu International Airport). so i opened AK's website using my mobile (lord bless data package) and checked the next flight to KK and used that as an opening for my presentation.

how? you go figure.

4th stage.

right after that, we were divided into 12 groups and we were given ONLY 5 minutes to prepare for a group performance. i went to our group and told them look, we are doing this and i laid down the plan.. it will be a sketch about AK's walk in interview and it will be a parody.. i gave the characters and i told them, just roll with it... no scripts, nothing..

we were the 10th group to perform and we were not allowed to sit in a group to further discuss. at that time i was praying, we will either make it, or break it..

the other groups were ok.. they were ill prepared and some had no idea what they were doing.. i pity them as we were only allocated 5 minutes to prepare.

when my team performed, we nailed it. everyone was perfect, even better than what i expected. they all embraced the characters and everyone enjoyed the sketch. we were the few groups that people were laughing with us, not at us.

as soon as we were done, i heard one of the penal said, "THIS IS MY FAV GROUP!"

i was happy, i mean come on, acting is my forte.. i am a drama queen!*smug*

after all the performance, we went for lunch and i was showered with congratulatory speeches. i felt like i won an Oscar or something..

5th stage. FINAL INTERVIEW.

we got back into the hall, and they said we will be divided into smaller groups. as the numbers got called i realized that there is only 2 groups and the other is bigger than ours. i sensed something is wrong..

i knew at that point one of the groups will be going home.

some of the early favs were called into the other group.. i was not called and the other group were twice our size. i prayed real hard. as the other group was instructed to leave the hall everyone began to pray.. most of us by that time had sensed something is off..

we got to know that we made it for the final interview. so we waited outside and we were called one by one..

there were 6 sets of panels of 2 and i was amongst the earliest to be called. i got the 2nd panel. one hot dude and one not so hot.

i was asked numerous questions, about my degree and my choice.. and about the aviation industry.. of course i nailed all of the questions! by that time i had regained my confidence and i had to nail the interview..

one memorable moment was when the interviewer asked.. "Where do u see yourself in 5 yrs from now?"

i answered.. "i see myself maybe as a leading steward.."

he said... "maybe more.. with your dynamic personality and attitude, you might be sitting here in our place doing interviews..."

i was on cloud 9! i was flying high.. at that point i knew it.. i would get the job! but i didnt want to be over confident.

so i waited at the side as the result being passed to the "result table" i was called and i got the job!

Kelvin and few more people i got close to also made it and a large number of people didnt. i feel bad for them being so close yet so far away.!!

so this friday i will have to attend a medical check up and if all go well i hope ill be in the academy by August.. amin!

p/s: i want to thank my mum and dad for i dont know how much money they have spent on me and making sure that my dreams came true. for the moral support and all..

my friends, apai and johan.. yang sanggup teman i sampai ipoh for interviews,

Qoy and Shuk.. yang selalu support and bg i info and make sure i dont give up and call i everytime i ade interview and to see how i do... i love u both..

cik Teena, walaupun kita baru kenal.. u sgt supportive and baik! i wish u well love..

to all those who supported me tp i x sebut.. thanks..

and to that certain someone.. who cried when i got in.. very cute la.. i terharu..! i cannot share ur name here.. bahaya! haha..

Edward Maya & Vika Jigulina- Stereo Love

2011-07-20T04:34:00.000+08:00

i am frigging loving this song! i cant get enough of it. i have to admit that this is not the type of song that i usually listen to, but somehow i am deeply inlove with it..

working in Musa means listening to music like this. so i dah jatuh hati la dekat this song..

When you're gonna stop breaking my heart
I don't wanna be another one
Paying for the things I never done
Don't let go,
Don't let go
To my love.

Can I get to your soul?
Can you get to my thought?
Can we promise we won't let go?
All the things that I need
All the things that you need
You can make it feel so real.

the original video is protected, so i cannot embed the video.. but u can find it here..

not a fan.. but im in LOVE.

2011-07-20T04:19:00.000+08:00

hye readers,

i am not a big fan of Justin Bieber and Taylor Swift.. but that does not mean i cant like their songs especially when it is good! these 2 songs is my personal fav from the two young millionaire. yes i am saying the word millionaire with an envious tone. sue me!

the reason why i love this two song is becoz of the lyrics and also the music. the two reason why i listen to a certain songs over and over again..

Justin Bieber's-That Should Be Me.

That Should Be Me Lyrics

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

Everybody's laughing in my mind,
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy,
Do you do what you did when you
did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me?
'cause baby I didn't!

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

Ouuuuuuu
ouuuuuuuu

That should be me,
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
For my mistakes,
It's funny how you used that time
To have me replaced,
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me,
You're takin' him where we used to go,
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart,
It's working 'cause you know that,...

Chorus:

That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me ,

Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me

I need to know should I fight
For our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
This pain in my heart!!!

Chorus:
That should be me,
Holdin' your hand,
That should be me,
Makin' you laugh,
That should be me,
This is so sad,
That should be me,
That should be me,
That should be me,
Feelin' your kiss,
That should be me,
Buyin' you gifts,
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
Till you believe that,
That should be me,
Holding your hand,
That should be me,
Oh i makin you laugh, oh Baby,
That should be me,
(that should be me givin you flowers)
That should be me,
Talking by hours,that should be me, that should be me,
that should be me

Never should've let you go,!
I never should've let you go,!
That should be me!! <3
Never should've let you go
That should be me!!<3

Taylor Swift's- Back To December.

Back To December lyrics
Songwriters: Swift, Taylor;

I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life? Tell me, how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why

Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses, and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time

These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed, and I didn't call

Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days
When fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love, and all I gave you was goodbye
(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/t/taylor-swift-lyrics/back-to-december-lyrics.html)

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand

This is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you, saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time, all the time

my current obsession..

2011-06-29T02:30:00.000+08:00

hey peeps!

he is a celebrity chef who had appeared in many tv shows and had written tons of cooking books. on top of that he is super cute!!

he is.. Rocco DiSpirito.

Jangan Menangis Sayang!

2011-06-28T02:48:00.000+08:00

hye readers.

a couple of weeks ago, went to karaoke with a friend and he sang this song. sekali, the song melekat dalam kepala otak i. its a malay song, and how much I dun look like one, apart of me is still one. ahaha. so its a malay song, lama jugak kot. maybe late 90's.

ini semua salah Encik S, sebab menyanyikan lagu ini sampai i jatuh hati. haha. now every time my mind wonders off, i akan ingat this song and will sing it to myself. i know some of my friends dah noya dengar i nyanyi lagu ni.. but what to do.. :p

i fell in love with the lyrics. so here u go, judge me all you want.. enjoy! haha

My Very First V Blog!

2011-06-19T16:13:00.000+08:00

hey Guys. this is my Very first Video Blog. Haha.. enjoy!

Adele- 21.

2011-06-03T04:04:00.001+08:00

hye readers,

i know its kinda too late to review or recommend this Album, but what the hell. i am sure many of you out there still haven't ~~download~~ bought her album yet,

for me this is an AMAZING album and i adore it. i listen to it all the time. the reason i love it so much is that i can relate to her songs. i can emotionally relate to it and it feels like i have gone through every single damn this she is singing.. i feel like i want to scream to hear..

"girlfriend, i feel you! you go girl"

lol!

my top five songs from her album would be..

1. Someone Like You.

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

2. Turning Tables.

Under hardest guise I see ooh
Where love is lost, your ghost is found
I braved a hundred storms to leave you
As hard as you try, no I will never be knocked down

I can't keep up with your turning tables
Under your thumb, I can't breathe

Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
When the thunder calls for me
Next time I'll be braver
I'll be my own savior
Standing on my own two feet

3. Don't You Remember.

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

4. Rolling In The Deep.

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside your hand,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

5. Set Fire To The Rain.

'Cause there's a side to you
That I never knew, never knew,
All the things you'd say,
They were never true, never true,
And the games you play
You would always win, always win.

[Chorus:]
But I set fire to the rain,
Watched it pour as I touched your face,
Well, it burned while I cried
'Cause I heard it screaming out your name, your name!

I set fire to the rain
And I threw us into the flames
Well, it felt something died
'Cause I knew that that was the last time, the last time!

Sometimes I wake up by the door,
That heart you caught, must be waiting for you
Even now when we're already over
I can't help myself from looking for you.

i cant help it. i love her voice and i love the meaning of the songs. i listen to her everywhere, in my car, in the tren, on my ipod, on my radio, on my ipad, on my phone... Adele is all over.

i am backkk ...

2011-05-29T23:02:00.001+08:00

hello hello..

at last a post from me.. i know no one misses my writings, but hey, i am entitled to feeling-feeling kan..?

i am coming back with a huge load. lol. i mean it. i will be back for .good saving this dying blog with a brand new concept. hehe.

wait for me.....!!!

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someone like you..

2011-04-06T15:57:00.002+08:00

towards the end of the song she is controlling her tears,and i am all in tears.. what a beautiful song and i am so so so so touched.. loved her album and every single song in it..

I heard that you're settled down,
That you found a girl and you're married now,
I heard that your dreams came true,
Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you,
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead, yeah,

You know how the time flies,
Only yesterday was the time of our lives,
We were born and raised in a summer haze,
Bound by the surprise of our glory days,

I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited,
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it,
I had hoped you'd see my face,
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over,

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nothing compares,
No worries or cares,
Regrets and mistakes, they're memories made,
Who would have known how bittersweet this would taste?

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"

Nevermind, I'll find someone like you,
I wish nothing but the best for you, too,
Don't forget me, I beg,
I remember you said,
"Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead,"
Sometimes it lasts in love,
But sometimes it hurts instead.

VBlog

2011-02-24T22:32:00.001+08:00

Hey readers,

so last week when i was chatting with Miss Sopha and Q, they suggested for me to do a video blog..
Its not the worst idea actually. It would be the perfect solution for my laziness to type.

maybe I should try this Vblog thinggy, who knows that I might like it..? Right..??

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long

2011-02-23T23:23:00.001+08:00

Hello Readers,

it had been ages since my last update as I was extremely busy with exams. I had no time to sit and type out my feelings.

trust me, there's gazillion things I would like to share but the time had not been sufficient for me to balance between studies, play, personal and others.

I had to really pay attention for my finals coz I want it to literally be my finals.

So guys please pray for me.. I really need to pass all 5 pprs this sem.

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i am a man... am i?

2011-01-07T00:20:00.000+08:00

hye readers..

what makes a man, man?

is is his macho style?

his sexy biceps and abs?

his dazzling smile?

the way he sips his "kopi jantan"?

or is it his 5 digits salary every month?

or the fact that he can nail 5 ladies in one night and still counting?

so what actually makes a man, man? one thing that many would agree on is that a man becomes a man when he can take charge of a situation and takes control. but does that makes a dude, a man?

so today, i became a man.. (making reference to the general acceptance of society) i called my ex and told him the truth about everything and how i felt.. and i told him that i would never return to him, at least when i am in my right sense of mind.

yes, i took control.

but after the empowering moment, as soon as i put down the phone, a sudden rush of loneliness spreads deep within.. so, was i a man for the 5 minutes and 34 seconds phone call only?

it struck me, a man is not someone who is in control all the time. for me, being a man means being in control at the right time, but also being the spongy,comfy emotional beg when in need.

so, it is final, i am a man!

"errr.. anyone seen my red Dior dress??"

the call.

2011-01-05T05:20:00.001+08:00

hye readers,

yesterday, as soon as i reached home after class and dinner, i got a call from an unknown number. the moment i heard the voice from the receiver, i knew who it was.. and i was stunned that the person even called.

it was someone i dated a while.. the relationship was not publicized since it was for a short while and we both intended to make it private. unfortunately it lasted only a few weeks. i caught him cheating on me. and that was the deal breaker for me.

so he called and we talked a little.. and in the middle of the conversation he asked me to get back together. out of nowhere. its like you ate a chocolate and suddenly theres a mint chocolate filling come bursting in your mouth, its not pleasant..

it took me off my elements for a while, but i just said one thing.. "gimme time to think about it"

when i asked him why? he said it is his new year's resolution to make things right with me.. well at least someone is acting on their reso!

as a matter of fact there were nothing to think about. he cheated on me once and he might do it again.. and i dare not take the chance..

at that very instantaneous moment i knew what my decision was..

but after that, it suddenly came to a realization what if i was suppose to give him a second chance? maybe it was destined to be.. why in hell am i still single? and at least he made the effort of calling me and wanting to work things out..

but again, the weight between the possibilities that we hold and the pain that he caused, it is just not worth it. and ill be so hypocritical of me to not practice what ive preached.

haish.. what a life.. in case any of u are still wondering (and i hope theres at least a single soul is) YES, i am still single!

It's not my fault that he's so irresistible
But all the damage he's caused is unfixable
Every twenty seconds you repeat his name
But when it comes to me you don't care
If I'm alive or dead

So objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart your hands again
No way I've got to get away

Next to her cheap silicon I look minimal
That's why in front of your eyes I'm invisible
But you gotta know small things also count
You better put your feet on the ground
And see what it's all about

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection the angles of this triagle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way...no no no no no

I wish there was a chance for you and me
I wish you couldn't find a place to be
Away from here

This is pathetic and sardonic
It's sadistic and psychotic
Tango is not for three
Was never meant to be

But you can try it
Rehearse it
Or train like a horse it
But don't you count on me
Don't you count on me boy

Objection I don't wanna be the exception
To get a bit of your attention
I love you for free and I'm not your mother
But you don't even bother

Objection I'm tired of this triangle
Got dizzy dancing tango
I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away
Get away, get away, hey hey hey get away hey hey

I'm falling apart in your hands again
No way I've got to get away
Get away, get away, hey hey hey get away hey hey

I'm falling apart in your hands again
get away hey hey get away he heyyy

get away!

Perfect Nightmare.

2011-01-03T14:33:00.000+08:00

hye readers, i am deeply and madly inlove with the song.. i love the lyrics and all.. well done Shontelle.

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why don’t I
Just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should
But sometimes I don’t
Build up the strength to
Say that it’s wrong

Sometimes I hate
Sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I don’t
Sometimes I wait
For him to change
But it’s okay
I’ve disguised the pain

And I don’t ever wanna leave him alone
They say i’m brainwashed but i’m in love
With this man
Yeah

Keep telling myself that it’s not worth it
I already know I don’t deserve it
But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way (x7)

But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool
Sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe
Sometimes I really don’t
Sometimes I promise that i’m ready to let him go

But I don’t ever wanna leave him alone
They say i’m brainwashed but i’m in love
With this man
Ohh ohhh

Keep telling myself that it’s not worth it
I already know I don’t deserve it
But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way (x7)

But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

Hoping he’s changing
But i’m scared he’s not
Can’t see a way to leave
Help me open my eyes

Keep telling myself that it’s not worth it
I already know I don’t deserve it
But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect

Keep telling myself that it’s not worth it
I already know I don’t deserve it
But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream

No way (x7)

But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

No way (x7)

But if it’s from you I don’t mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

chocolate.

2011-01-03T01:10:00.000+08:00

at this very moment, i am eating a huge chunk of chocolate bar. this usually happens when i am depressed, and frankly speaking i am a depressed person at this very moment.

so eating a huge chunk of chocolate bar usually helps, and i hope it does it magic this time too.

i have this few things going on my head that i dont know to whom and how to spill it out, without sounding like a self-centered prick or like a looser.

what a great way to start the NEW YEAR right? filled with emotional rubbish up clouding my head.

of course i cant tell it here too, since the post will reach the person, someday, somehow, intentionally or unintentionally, with good or bad faith.. so any how, it will still reach the person/s involved.

i am well known for doing stupid things in life that i will regret later on. if doing stupid things in life is a requirement for a job interview, ill nail every single interview that i attended.

for example, like today, i almost did something extremely stupid and i am thanking god so so much somehow i found a glimpse of wisdom in me and stopped myself from doing something that i will surely regret..

i dont know why i am prone of doing stupid things.. but for me, at that time it is a wise idea, until i do it in the real life and gets feedback from it, and at the moment i will be like "why in hell did i do it?"

but it will all be too late as the damage is done..

i am praying hard that this year i will grasp the concept that "reality is nothing like the fantasy i build in my head.." bcoz i dun want to be a victim of a foolish heart..

pain.

2010-12-29T02:51:00.001+08:00

if i say that humans are addicted to pain, will you ever believe me? it may be something that is really hard to wrap our mind around the idea.. but it is true.. humans are addicted to pain.

1. piercings are effing painful. especially over that certain spots, yet we endure with it. some even got addicted to the pain, hence the face-full of piercings.. ears, nose, tongue, lips, forehead, every possible spot.

2. tattoos are similar to piercings, it is painful, yet we put up with the pain to achieve something called self satisfaction. when the tattoo is all done and completed. we then come back for more to go through another painful experience.

3. anal sex is not pleasant. trust me, my friends share. :p but we allow people to poke their dick, dildos, fingers, wrist, fist and what ever possible up our A$$. we complain how painful it is, yet we go searching for more things to be shoved up there. (this is strictly tru experiences of my buddies)

with all that, comes a phrase.. "from pain comes pleasure.."

in most of the circumstances i do understand what the pleasure is after the pain, like having the pretty belly with shining stud or having a drawing of ur loved one on ur body parts. the end result is the pleasure.

but what i am trying to educate myself is on, why human being love repeating the pain in love, over and over again with the same person.

i have a friend and she has this so called boyfriend.. they had been in a relationship for more thn a year, and nothing about the relationship is pleasure. he is violent and abusive, he has multiple sluts he sleeps with, he insults her in public and the only things she has around her all the time is her tears.

they broke up multiple times.. but after everytime they break up, she will go running back to him like she needs him to breathe.

knowing it would be the same old routine, she screams, he shouts, he gets physical she get emotional.. and the relationship is like a cycle of life for the devils.

i failed in understanding why go back when the pain that provides no pleasure? and she is not the only case, even i have to admit that i, for many times run to my pain over and over again, regardless of the pleasure in the end.

its like pain is our ecstasy to keep on living.

i do understand that pain cannot be avoided in life, but isnt once enough?

2 words: GROW BALLS!

2010-12-28T02:17:00.000+08:00

hye readers.

i tried sleeping, but i dun think theres any chance ill get some anytime soon! dammit.. i have no idea why the hell i am wide awake!

but again, that gives me an opportunity to blurt something out here.

few days ago, i had supper with shuk at Williams with a couple of other friends. half way tru supper shuk told us the story of his classmate, where this dude really like this girl and always get all so super-duper shy in front of her and sampai tak boleh cakap depan the girl.

he got his tongue all twisted.

at first, when i heard the story i was like "awww... he is so cute.." ya la, when u go all shy and all, it can be adorable and cute. until i had time to analyze the situation.

if its the first few times, i find that cute. but if its all the time like that.. what the hell, grow some balls dude. a lady doesnot what to date another lady. he wants a man with balls. that i can assure you.

a lady wants a man to have the courage and strength to provide protection and also assurance over many issues. if she wants a pussy boy, she might as well go get herself a real pussy to play with.

imagine this, if u cant talk to her and express yourself infront of her, how can there be any relationship when the key to a good relationship is communication.

depan-depan all malu, sekali when you leave the parameter you communicate via text and apologize on ur shyness. once or twice she may accept this, but if a dude with balls come approach her, sorry hunny, no pussy-boy can win over that!

so guys, if u are in this category, GROW BALLS! no one likes the small insecure little ~~girl~~ boy in skirts.

p/s: if santa is still there, maybe u can try ordering a pair of BALLS?

recourse.

2010-12-27T01:51:00.002+08:00

recourse.

hey readers,

i was extremely busy with my IHL and right after was the Royale Debate 2010, hence the absence from updating anything in this blog.

right after the debate, i had to change my life style to adapt to the piling up campus works that was left unattended for a couple of weeks.

right now, i am trying to get everything back on track, i want to graduate on time, so this semester is my very last one and not the semester that i should be playing around with. the pile of assignments and extra works are bugging me, and it shall continue to bug me for a few more weeks.

i am looking forward for new year's celebration.. i will be in KL hanging with my besties and i am so inneed of the hang out moment. i miss my BFF's so so much.. tons to tell and spill.. ouh, it will be a very loud weekend.

and i know it is never too late to wish all my readers a Merry Xmas.

...santa, santa, bring me a cure for this lonely heart.

spare me the heart break.

2010-12-27T01:49:00.001+08:00

hey readers..

few weeks ago, in MPH, i read the 2011 Zodiac book, PISCES. actully Myer read the book as i stood there with eyes filled with hope heart filled with excitement.

it was "forecasted" by the book that i will have a great professional life ahead and it is something that i should look forward for next year. it was stated that i shall have tons of professional opportunities and i applaud to it as i am going to start working next year. itu pun kalau pass semua subjek sem ni.

but all the excitement and happiness stopped as soon as it reached the romantic section. it was clearly stated that "a single pisces will remain single.."

ok, i down!

i had been single for a very long time dah.. its one and a half year dah. longest i have ever been, and many times i yearn for someone to be there by my side. someone who understands me and adores me... yes, i do dream for a prince charming to come sweep me off my feet. i am human, surprisingly!

but the premonition seems to be true, i tried hard to work out a relationship, many-many times, but nothing seems to work. its like i've been jinx not to have a happy ending. its like i am the reason why my own fairytale does not have a happy ending.

imagine a Cinderella without the fairy god mother.. she will still be the beauty that cleans over the bitchy step mother.. aku bukan Cinderella.. if im one, we just share the common similar beauty, thats it!

bukan tak cuba, dah jenuh menyemai baja cinta namun yang tumbuh cume batang berduri tiada berbunga. sometimes i am at the edge of giving up simply because to save myself from the heartache. lord knows how many times i teared myself to sleep over this issue.

people said, everytime it happens, it makes us stronger.. stronger or just numb.. we are too numb to the pain that it makes no sense anymore to yearn over it?

but i believe one thing, not a chance in hell im gonna let a god damn book take charge and control of my life..

so to YOU that i once kissed.. early in the morning.. why dont u come back and make me feel i will be ok, AGAIN.

end it!

2010-12-05T11:30:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

have u ever been in an engaging conversation with another party, may it be, a friend, lover, scandals or whoever via sms, bbm, ym, whatsapp or whatever means.

of course u have, right? unless u live in a cage and use smoke to communicate this post does not apply to you.

and the conversation is so engaging that for a while you guys were replying each other non- stop, the conversation get heated up and ur fingers are typing non stop................. at least until the other person stops replying.

and so u wait and wait and wait, because the conversation is hanging.. and till u get ~~pisses~~ bored u send another msg to ask why the silence...

and the answer is that the other party is busy.....

"sorry la, i busy tadi.."

"sorry was attending to something.."

ok, firstly, i dun expect people to reply me all the time, but have the courtesy to end the conversation. u dun have to explain urself, even a simple BRB is sufficient as long as i know not to expect a reply anytime soon.

because we are in the middle of an engaging conversation.. hypothetical example would be, u are talking to ur friend face to face and suddenly he shuts down and start doing something else. that is so not cool..

it is very rude to leave a conversation hanging and make the other party wait for the reply. it is not rocket science, i can assure u that! it is a simple manner that one should have.

especially for me, when i am in an engaging conversation, i will wait for a reply and i will keep on looking at my phone for any replies.. and that makes me not able to concentrate on anything else i am doing.

and the worst is, when for some apps we can know if the person has read the msgs or not, and they have read it but just decided not to reply. great!

i have confronted few people saying that pls end the conversation, but nothing has yet to change, so i became a kid again and do the same to them. if u are not willing to at least respect me, do expect the same.

Grenade- Bruno Mars.

2010-11-29T10:32:00.003+08:00

this is my current obsession, Grenade by Bruno Mars. loving every single bit of it. he is a musical genius. born to sing..!

Easy come, easy go
That's just how you live, oh
Take, take, take it all,
But you never give
Should of known you was trouble from the first kiss, Had your eyes wide open -
Why were they open?
Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked, Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no
Black, black, black and blue beat me till I'm numb Tell the devil I said “hey” when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You’ll smile in my face then rip the breaks out my car
Gave you all I had

And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love is all I ever asked Cause what you don't understand is
I’d catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh You’ d watch me burn down in flames You said you loved me you're a liar Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...
But darling I’ll still catch a grenade for ya
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I’d jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah , yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain, Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for ya baby ; But you won't do the same.
No, you won’t do the same,
You wouldn’t do the same,
Ooh, you’ll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

Victoria Secret Angels to Katy Perry's Firework.

2010-11-26T06:17:00.000+08:00

the Genetically Engineered Ladies are! looking hotter and more fabulous than ever. amen!

America's Next Top Model Cycle 15.

2010-11-19T10:54:00.000+08:00

hello readers,

i saw ANTM cycle 15 episode 11 yesterday, it was the top 4. and for the episode they din do a photo shoot but tyra bank dorected a model directorial. it is a video to promote and show the models.

so i tried searching for only the directorial, but i cant find it. so in the youtube video i posted below, the directorial is at 6:38.

i had goosebumps when i saw it.. i hope u guys will enjoy it as much as i did!

kill me please.

2010-11-14T03:58:00.000+08:00

hey love,

i am extremely busy now. i know i yap a lot on how busy i am, but this is beyond words.

i need to prepare my memorial for the IHL.
i need to prepare tutorials for 5 core subjects
i need to keep up with lecture classes
i need to arrange for my attachments.
i need to still maintain my social life

there you go, so my schedule is filled with things to do.. i am trying not to freak out. and i hope it works. this is my last semester.. i dun wanna screw it up!

period!

i am so tired and my room is a mess. filled with notes, cases, books and statutes. all over the place. i am so exhausted and i am up late..

i even delayed myself from watching Glee and GG and 90210.. that is how busy i am!!! i dun delay tv series ok! they are like at the top of my priority list!

IHL is consuming a whole lot of myself..

most of u must be wondering what is a memorial kan? a memorial is like a scrap book (with no glitters, colored papers what so ever.) for lawyers to prepare before appearing before the court. its like our essay and our arguments in writings to be given to the judge and opposing counsel..

why is it a hell?

to support ur memorials, u need case laws.. and case laws by the ICJ is like hundreds and hundreds of pages. i basically have to read em one by one.. and not all are relevant cases.. so at times after reading cases, at the end.. it is just useless..

so i am sorry for my absence, but it is a must to sacrifice something.. but i do update my tweets regularly.. :))

Kelantan.

2010-11-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

currently i am in Kelantan, for my sister's wedding kenduri belah lelaki. obviously theres nothing much to explore here, as in night life.

but i kinda like the food here and had been enjoying myself with colek ayam and thai food petang tadi. that really made my tummy happy.

tonight it is raining heavily here in Kelantan. so i hope tak la banjir ke ape pulak kan. hopefully semua akan ok untuk the kenduri esok and also the roads will be clear for my journey back..

any good place to suggest for me to visit??

dear John.

2010-11-02T09:19:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

i was not able to sleep.. so after doing the tutorials and some IHL work, i decided to watch Dear John. it had been in my collection for a very long time.. but din have the chance until today..

the movie was ok, sweet and simple. i liked it a lot actually.. the fact that they din try to over do it, makes it very enjoyable.

but what i would love to talk about is the character John (Channing Tatum).. i loved the character.. in fact i fell in love with it. everything about John is to be loved. his smile, voice, sweetness, care and love...

and i can say, he is the type of person i would love to spend my life with.. but again, of course he is a fictional character.. so my dream will remain a dream. and if i dream bout it too much and be single my whole life.

but the fact that he is protects and he is loyal. makes me go gugu gaga.. what more do u want in a man? but still that is not sufficient. Savannah had to go marry some other dude. hello miss Savannah, you bodoh ke ape?

i was gasping for air during the last scene where he is pushing his bike and he wore the see-tru blue shirt and when he turned and smiled at Savannah. one word. DROPDEADCANDO.

The Iphone Death Grip!

2010-10-31T21:55:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

as we all know, the new iPhone4 was released with a controversy that when it is being held in a certain manner, it looses its "line" or its coverage drops.

so i am going to post a video to show that not only iPhone4 that is effected, but also his little bro iPhone 3GS and another phone that will surprise u!!

a MUST WATCH for those whose planning to get the iP4 or this specific android..

Debat Perpaduan. The Reality

2010-10-26T21:41:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

so back to the debat perpaduan story, yesterday was a quick update on our victory and a walk trough the kalah mati round. so today i decided to actually write about Debat Perpaduan 2010.

firstly, the teams were located at 2 different colleges in UniMAP that was far from one another. and i was separated from my buddies like Mira and Shebby. we didnt have time to sit and talk like any other debate and that sucked. its not like we have all the time in the world to meet each other.

despite all that, we went there with a mission, or should i say i went there with a mission (cant speak on behalf of my team) i wanted to win. its time and i told myself it is now or never. i went tru every round as if it were my last match..

as a result, we won 4 out of 6 matches in the first round.

MMU v UMT : won

UKM v MMU : won

MMU v UTHM : won

UniRazak v MMU : lost

UTP v MMU : won

MMU v UIAM : lost

so the 8 teams that made it to quarters were:

UIAM

UniRazak

UTP

MMU

UTHM

UKM

UiTM

it was extremely hard to go against UTP and UIAM as they were two great teams, but this time luck was with us. and we made it tru..

i also would like to Congratulate UKM for making it to the semi's. Mira, i am so proud of you. you are a great speaker and you deserved it to be in the semi. and this is also the first time i ever go against miss mira. al maklum la. before i habes kesampaian jugak nak go against her in a real debate match.

i am so happy and blessed to have a victory over my 5 years debating.. once, i was the kid who sat down and watched Kajol, Husna, Ezly Marzuki and Nizamuddin.. asking myself will i ever make it to the top, for even once. when i was learning, they were already making ways to suku and semi..

i know, no one is judging, but i am judging myself. it proves that all the hard work i put in for debate is worthy.

when MMU was announced as the champion, it felt like a dream. a dream that will never end. lord knows it was never easy, especially for us. bearing the IPTS label is heavier thn any other debater could imagine.

and the victory will not be achieved, without the prayers and love of all the people who took the few seconds to pray for MMU and to make this dream we have realized.

and for that, i thank you.

MMU Johan Debat Perpaduan 2010.

2010-10-26T05:04:00.000+08:00

hey readers.

akhirnya, sebelum career debat i bertemu penghujungnya, alhamdulillah, kerana dengan keizinanNya MMU telah pun dinobatkan sebagai Johan Debat Perpaduan dan Integrasi Nasional 2010. bumi bertuah Perlis sekali lagi memberikan kami kejuaraan (selepas Arau Open 2007).

perjalanan pusingan kalah mati buat MMU cukup berliku kerana di temukan dengan pasukan handalan dan pendebat-pendebat yang cukup hebat.

SUKU AKHIR

UTP vs MMU

Juri:5-0

Margin: 4.36

MMU menang

SEPARUH AKHIR

MMU vs UIAM

Juri: 4-1

Margin: 3.67

MMU Menang

AKHIR

UTHM vs MMU

MMU Menang.

ternyata perjalanan MMU bukan mudah kerana berhadapan dengan 2 gergasi dunia perdebatan, UTP dan UIAM sebelum bertemu dengan satu lagi pasukan hebat UTHM.

namun, mungkin sudah suratan, kejuaraan itu milik kami.. dan tahniah buat Myer Iyemman kerana dinobatkan sebagai pendebat terbaik akhir..

UniMAP.

2010-10-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

Hey readers,

Right now I am making my way to UniMAP for debat Perpaduan 2010. I was soo busy with practices and stuff for the entire week.

Myer still haven't take the shackles off my feet. Haha.

And I was also busy preparing my Moot for the International Humanitarian Law Moot Competition. I'm paired with aziyan as the prosecutors representing MMU.

So we are still busy gathering information for the memorial. I hope everything goes well..

So, guys please pray for MMU in Debat Perpaduan 2010.. :)

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Eleven

2010-10-11T05:50:00.000+08:00

hey hey readers.

ok yesterday Kobain, Faisal and Mell came to Melaka and slept over at my place. so i met them at night since i was from Seremban.

it was an innocent dinner at Calanthe then, turned into a wild night at Eleven for all four of us and some of their girl friends.

i had so much fun that night. al maklum la dah lama tak get wild and yes, i was an angel during the hols at home.. so here i am avenging! :P

GIGANTIC

2010-10-09T01:30:00.000+08:00

why in hell, suddenly all the pictures from the blogs that i am following appears to be extremely huge on my dashboard.

semak. paham tak semak?

dear mr BLOGSPOT,

if u may, please return the images to their actual sizes so that my eyes doesn't go all over the place when i am looking at my dashboard.

and for ur information, if u think that somehow looks artistic and fun, you are dead wrong.

so please take my sarcasm into consideration. thanks.

love,naz.

pictures.johan's open house.

2010-10-08T20:39:00.000+08:00

hello readers,

credits to Johan for uploading the pictures from his open house. here are some of it for all of u.

since the uploader is being a bitch, i can upload only this pics. so enjoyyy! :P

Eat.Pray.Love

2010-10-07T05:47:00.000+08:00

hello readers,

it has been a while since i last reviewed a movie, so here's my review for Eat Pray Love

first and foremost, the movie is quite slow, but i loved the message sent across. if you guys remembered, i have been babbling about the "ME" time after a long relationship, well this movie is all about the Mentioned "ME" time right before u get into another relationship.

with gorgeous cinematography, and great actors like Christine Hakim, it really stole my heart.

Eat.Pray.Love represents 3 different places and three different phase of the after break up.

so what happened was, Julia Roberts just had a divorce with her husband after being married for many years, and right after she got into a relationship with a hot young chap. but still she feels empty and as if her life is incomplete.

when she was in a relationship with the young guy, they were always arguing and fighting. and he said something really sweet, i cant remember what it was exactly was but it means something like, "it does not matter how bad we fight, because the pain that we get from fighting is better than being apart since i cant bare the pain from the fact that we are no more together.."

the words are all wrong but the meaning of the sentence is more or less. sorry i was not a photostat machine.

EAT

eat was when she was in Italy and she really focus on eating and enjoying everything about it there, in Italy. she din bother about anything else but just living life to the fullest..

PRAY

India was the place where she learned how to develop herself spiritually. we cant deny that spiritual is something important when inventing one's self after a bad break up.

LOVE

Bali was the placed that she learned that it is ok to fall in love again, and it is ok to trust another person again.

i just gave a short description of what had happened, butt the question remains, who does she fall for in Bali?

I LOVE MONDAYS.........

2010-10-05T00:34:00.000+08:00

...............ONLY DURING THE HOLIDAYS!

i love the fact that i dun have to worry about class, assignments, tutorials, or any other campus related stuff.

the fact that i have this big smug everytime i read someone else's post or status that they have to work or go to class make me even happier. how i love waking up on Mondays during the holidays.

my my happy feet dance stops there...

i am stuck at home doing nothing makes me feel like committing suicide. at this moment i am longing for a jurist poll to complete. time aku free macam ni tak nak pulak suro wat benda menatang haram merepek tu kan?

today, i soap myself twice during sure so that more time is spent in the toilet.

i even learnt how does capsicum smells when they are cooked.

i am well educated on the way of killing a mosquito.

amen.. thus, i hate that i love you so.

Rumah Terbuka.

2010-10-04T01:30:00.000+08:00

hello readers..

raya tahun ni seriously sangat hambar.. i din go to many houses. open house ape tah lagi kan. so today my fren johan ade buat makan-makan for his classmates. and i was invited too. ala-ala mini open house laaa..

tak ramai yang di jemput, like there was like 5 or 6 of us. which was good. it means mcm tak terlalu crowded and the crowd can mingle easily among each other.

sorry la xde picture. still waiting for Johan and Musz to upload em.. i left my camera at home when i went.

so i wanna thank johan and his mum for the lovely lunch. merci beaucop.

who sang it better?

2010-10-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

i am going to post 3 persons singing (including the original singer), Turn Ya Swag On by Soulja Boys, but the Keri Hilson version, and you guys choose who sang it better..

Keri Hilson

Erin Paulaa

Cher (Britain's Got Talent)

in my opinion:

1. Erin Paulaa

2. Cher

3. Keri Hilson

i just felt that they pulled off the song better than Keri Hilson. just my own harmless opinion..

honestly..

2010-10-03T14:11:00.000+08:00

i honestly cant wait for the launching of Grindr for BlackBerry.. can you guys hurry already..!!

My Sister's Wedding Reception

2010-10-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

hey people,

this update is on my Sister's Wedding Reception that took place roun 2 weeks ago at Klana Resort Seremban. so, i would love to share tons of pics from the occasion.

i would also like to thank my friends who came on that day, especially my MMU friends lah, since exam was around the corner and you guys still came!! thanks a bunch!!

end

2010-10-01T05:03:00.000+08:00

hey readers,

i cant believe i am saying this, but, i am all done with my finals. amin.

now i have time to relax and lay back and do nothing. but after an exam, the worst thing is waiting for the results.

like any other finals, i am afraid for a few of my pprs. i am afraid that i might flunk them and not able to graduate on time (god forbids)

so people, please do pray for me..!

at the moment i have 10 days of holidays before i should come back to Melaka and prepare myself for an upcoming debate tournament. so i better take this time to regain all the energy i had lost during the finals.

She's a BLONDE

2010-09-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

Hey readers..

I am here to share a quick update on this hilarious joke I got from my fren, Mr Atif via BBM.

Enjoyy!

A blonde and 2 brunettes escaped from prison one day and ran to a nearby farm to hide as the cops were looking for them. In the farm, the girls found 3 potato sacks and decided to hide in it. Not long after, the cops came. " There's nothing here but 3 sacks!" Says one of the cop. The other replied " well kick them just to be sure". The cop then kicked the first brunette. "Meowww" she said. "Its just a cat..." The cop said. Then he kicked the 2nd brunette. "Woof woof". " Its just a dog" the cop said. Then he kicked the blonde...and blonde yelled out "potatoes!"

--
If your boss says, 'All you have to do is...' you know you're in trouble.

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EXAM FINAL

2010-09-24T03:40:00.001+08:00

sekarang saya tengah exam. saya baru nak pulun last minute so jangan la berangan saya nak update ape2 kat sini..

sila lah follow saya di Twitter. sekian.

SePi.

2010-09-22T01:28:00.002+08:00

this post is dedicated to Johan..

i know at times loneliness can be so cruel that it takes ur courage and it takes away you confidence. it leave u feeling hanging and no one to confide in.

it leaves u wondering if u ever gonna have the warmth hug to accompany you all night and the gentle kiss to wake u up in the morning.

it makes u think if you are never going to be good enough to ever be loved and cared for.. if you are why are u still all alone spending many lonely nights.

but trust me, you are going to be fine.. you just have to be strong and loneliness is just this tiny hiccup in ur fabulous life.

dont let this tiny hiccup take a toll on u!

Sepi hati terjadi lagi
Mungkin sampai mati aku sepi
Biar senyum hadir di hariku
namun ini hanya ada di bibir
di bibir saja

Aku ini yang bisa mengerti
walaupun yang lain mau mengerti
Namun berat beban hidupku
biarkan saja
Biar saja hanya ku yang tahu

Sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
Butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

sejarah cinta dan hidupku
penuh duri dan banyak ranjau
butuh kesabaran yang penuh
untuk tetap ku berdiri

ada saatnya ku bicara
bila hatiku telah bulat
Sepanjang ku bisa atasi semua
aku tetap diam

No by Shakira

2010-09-21T02:30:00.002+08:00

one of the most beautiful written song...

No, no intentes disculparte
No juegues a insistir
Las excusas ya existían antes de ti

No, no me mires como antes
No hables en plural
La retórica es tu arma más letal

Voy a pedirte que no vuelvas más
Siento que me duelas todavía aquí
Adentro

Y que a tu edad sepas bien lo que es
Romperle el corazón a alguien así

No se puede vivir con tanto veneno,
La esperanza que me dio tu amor
No me la dio más nadie,
Te juro, no miento

No se puede vivir con tanto veneno
No se puede dedicar el alma
A acumular intentos
Pesa más la rabia que el cemento

Espero que no esperes que te espere
Después de mis 26
La paciencia se me ha ido hasta los pies

Y voy deshojando margaritas
Y mirando sin mirar
Para ver si así, te irritas y te vas

Voy a pedirte que no vuelvas más
Siento que me duelas todavía aquí
Adentro

Y que a tu edad sepas bien lo que es
Romperle el corazón a alguien así

No se puede vivir con tanto veneno
La esperanza que me dio tu amor
No me la dio más nadie
Te juro, no miento

No se puede morir con tanto veneno
No se puede dedicar el alma
A acumular intentos
Pesa más la rabia que el cemento

NO [english]

No, don't try to apologize
Don't play the game of persistence
Excuses existed before you did

No, dont look at me like before,
Don't talk in plural
Rhetoric your most lethal weapon

I'm going to ask you to never come back again
I regret that you still can hurt me, here,
Inside

And that at your age you already know well
What its like to break someone's heart like this

No, one can't live with so much venom
The hope your love gave me
No one else has given me
I swear

No, one can't die with so much venom
One shouldn't devote the soul
To collecting attempts
Rage weighs more than cement

I expect that you dont expect that i expect you
After turning twenty six
Patience has sunk all the way down to my feet

So here i pluck daisy petals
While I'm looking without seeing
To find our if you'll get irritated and leave

I'm going to ask you not to come back ever again
I regret that you still can hurt me, here,
Inside

And that at your age you already know well
What is like to break someone's heart like this

No, one can't live with so much venom
The hope your love gave me
No one else has given me
I swear

No, one can't die with so much venom
One shouldn't devote the soul
To collecting attempts
Rage weighs more than cement

exam

2010-09-17T00:59:00.001+08:00

saya tak mahu amik exam. saya nak duduk mengangkang tengok tv series tanpa henti dan bermalas-malasan.

sekian.

Aidilfitri.

2010-09-12T16:51:00.002+08:00

hey readers.

well, its raya and all ive been doing is eating, pavilion and also more eating.. watching tv series and yes watching more tv series.

i dun know when in hell will i start studying. haish. dammit exams. cant you start anymore later??? i wanna enjoy my holidays first. i wanna enjoy my raya.

well, i will post some pics later. but i am growing fatter. my mum's special nasi tomato, kurma ayam, ayam masak merah, pajeri nenas, some sort of meat and also rendang. the nasi impit and kuah kacang should not be forgotten.

well, i think i should start studying. so so long for now. hehe.

irony.

2010-09-12T05:14:00.003+08:00

carrie bradshaw in Sex and The City the series
encounters with her ex-es all the time accidentally
in the City. well i always tot that it was impossible.
how can u accidentally bump into ur ex, its a huge city!

but today.. i stand corrected.

i was in Pavi with Johan.. just wondering and wasting our time. and somehow i really wanted to have carl's jr. i was so persistent to eat there. period! and there's nothing going to stop me.

despite the fact that i just had it the day before
despite the fact that Johan really wants to eat Subway
despite the fact that i am on diet

i even insisted to eat after the movie and not before. the powers of irony.

all of that only to bump into my ex in Carl's Jr.

the reason i choose CJ is that we never ate there and i din wanna go to Nando's or any other places that he likes. so CJ seems like it was the best option..

so after ordering i was trying to fill up the my container with ice and the damn ice got jammed. until someone walked passed me and said "Hye Naz." and i replied "Eh!!"

that was the only reply i could give.. there's a sudden rush of mixed feelings inside me, angry, sad, upset, confused, hatred all jumbled up. i didnt know what to do. i tried filling the bloody cup but it wont work. i feel like fainting and i cant stand. so i took the filled cup to the table where Johan was sitting.

i told him what happened and he was like more concern why the cup is not full (jokin!). so he went for a re-fill.. i din noe what to do and how to react. and i thank lord that i was there with Johan. at least someone who knows what had happened. someone who can calm me down.

according to the theoretical part i am prepared to meet my ex. in fact i did and it went well.. at least for me. but this time it was different..

i lost my mood.

my burger tasted like sand
and my fries tasted like tree branches

and i wondered, what should i do, should i say hye back or should i just ~~keep on chasing pavements~~ leave after eating. i decided to just leave..

he din appreciate me as a friend. i tried being a friend. but no, he lied right to my face. when i asked if he is seeing someone, he said no.. then i got to know that he was seeing someone before that person dumped him.. i would have felt sorry if he was honest. but he is an effing liar! i asked him even when i met him in Pavi for dinner. he said he is SINGLE to my face. sedangkan die ade bf.

and that made me thinking, what if he had did that to OUR past relationship.. lied to certain people about his status. about who i was.

johan said, there's no point over analyzing the past.. it means nothing. but if he could lie as convincing as waht he did about his status now, i doubt it that it would be hard to lie to me since i was thousands kilometers away. but again, that's not my call to judge on.

i started off wanting to be a friend and putting all this matter behind me, but he seems to be able to surprise me with more and more news. amen!

i even stupidly added me on FB. i tot what the hell. thats what friends will do.. patut la he din approve me.. trying to hide a big fat lie.

i am not a perfect lover and i dun claim to be, but i tried to be a better friend. but you know what they say.. fool me once, shame on you.. fool me twice shame on me.

and God knows, I am no fool!

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Eidul FItri Mubaraq.

2010-09-10T05:29:00.002+08:00

i just wanna wish all my readers,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA
MAAF ZAHIR BATIN.

ikhlas,

nazwan

Demi Masa.

2010-09-10T05:08:00.004+08:00

بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

وَالْعَصْرِ
إِنَّ الإنْسَانَ لَفِي خُسْرٍ
إِلا الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالْحَقِّ وَتَوَاصَوْا بِالصَّبْرِ

Ramadhan kali ini di rasa kan terlalu sekejap. tiba-tiba je mcm dah raya. rasa mcm tak cukup and tak puas melalui ramadhan. rasa seperti terlalu banyak masa di persiakan untuk mengejar kejayaan duniawi sehingga masa untuk beribadah terbiar sepi.

Allah SWT kasi cuma 30 hari sahaja.. dan bagi mereka yang menggunakan 30 hari itu sebaik mungkin dengan amal dan ibadahm, serta 1001 kebaikan, pasti rasa puas dan menjadikan ramdhan mereka lebih bermakna.

bagi mereka yang macam I, yang terleka dengan perkara yang melalaikan, kita panjatkan doa buat Illahi moga di panjangkan umur dan di pertemukan dengan Ramadhan yang akan datang.

mungkin betul la maksud surah Al- Asr,

"demi masa,
sesungguhnya manusia kerugian,
melainkan yang beriman dan beramal soleh......"

My Top 10 "LAYAN" Songs

2010-09-08T05:58:00.005+08:00

this time around i would like to post 10 songs, love songs to be exact that you can listen to when u are feeling really emotional about love.

or in Malay, ni kire lagu le layan jiwang or tangkap leleh la. layan baek nya. haha. with that being said, the posted songs are songs from the 2000's.

so i shall, name the songs. place a video and also a part of the lyrics that i love. basically all of these songs mean something in my life and is kinda related. that is why the times they are being repeated on itunes is countless. :P

hehe. enjoy!

1. Yesterday- Toni Braxton Feat Trey Songz

"Honey, you, you are so yesterday
I won't let you rain on my parade
Don't wanna hear a thing you say
So yesterday

And now you wanna reminisce (now I wanna reminisce)
Say you wanna try again
(said I wanna try again)
It started with a little kiss (a kiss, a kiss)
(we cant even repent) no no

Now I never wanna see you, Never wanna feel you
Never wanna hear you
I don't love you, don't need you, can't stand you
No More..

You you are so yesterday
Never thought you'd loose my love this way
(toni please, dont leave)
Now you come begging me to stay (I wont stay)"

2. The Way Thay I Love You- Ashanti

"After all of the times that we tried,
I found out we were living a lie
And after all of this love that we made,
I Know Now you don’t love me the same
The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

The way that I love
(The way that I love you)

The way that I love
(The way that I love you)"
***
"Everything you did and everything you said,
now I’m standin’ here lookin’ like damn
I thought it was you and I,
now all I gotta say is why"

3. Poetry- Danity Kane

"I try to feel confident
I'm bitter - You're not making sense
I missed you 'til you almost took my sanity
I started a new verse like

Poetry, you're hiding behind the words you speak
Changing the words of the story
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
I'm fighting
You're hiding behind the words you're speaking
You're changing the words, I'm lost in the verse
You say you don't love me then say that you love me
Why are you hiding?"

4.Cry- Rihanna

"Did it happen when we first kissed?
'Cause it's hurtin' me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more

I shoulda never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Gotta figure out how you stole my heart

My mind is gone, I'm spinnin' 'round
And deep inside my tears I'll drown
I'm losin' grip, what's happenin'?
I strayed from love, this is how I feel

This time was different
Felt like I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life"

5. Almost Lover- A Fine Frenzy

"Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?"

6. Dancing- Elisa

"So I put my arms around you around you
And I hope that I will do no wrong
My eyes are on you they're on you
And I hope that you won't hurt me

I'm dancing in the room as if I was in the woods with you
No need for anything but music
Music's the reason why I know time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists
Time still exists"

7. Be Without You- Mary J Blige

"See this is real talk
I'm always stay (no matter what)
Good or bad (thick and thin)
Right or wrong (all day everyday)
Now if you're down on love or don't believe
This ain't for you (no, this ain't for you)
And if you got it deep in your heart
And deep down you know that it's true (come on, come on, come on)
Well, let me see you put your hands up (hands up)
Fellas tell your lady she's the one (fellas tell your lady she's the one, oh)
Put your hands up (hands up)
Ladies let him know he's got your love
Look him right in his eyes and tell him
We've been...

Too strong for too long (and I can't be without you baby)
And I'll be waiting up until you get home (cuz I can't sleep without you baby)
Anybody who's ever loved, ya know just what I feel
Too hard to fake it, nothing can replace it
Call the radio if you just can't be without your baby"

8. We Belong Together- Mariah Carey

"I'm feeling all out of my element
I'm throwing things, crying
Trying to figure out
Where the hell I went wrong

The pain reflected in this song
It ain't even half of what
I'm feeling inside
I need you, need you back in my life, baby

When you left I lost a part of me
And it's still so hard to believe
Come back baby, please
Cause we belong together"

9. Love The Way You Lie - Eminen feat Rihanna

"So insane, cause when it's goin' good it's goin' great
I'm superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snap
Whose that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
Well that's all right because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
Well that's all right because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie"

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10. Beyonce- Dangerously In Love

"Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love and to hold
To feel
To breathe
To love you

Dangerously in love
Can't do this thing
I love you , I love you, I love you
I'll never leave
Just keep on loving me
I'm in love with you
I can not do
I cannot do anything without you in my life
Holding me, kissing me, loving me
Dangerously
I love you
Dangerously in love"

happy!!

2010-09-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

i am extremely happy right now. a little bird just told me a story.. that is suppose to be disheartening for the person, but it makes a pretty damn good news for me.

i know feeding on people's sadness is not good. but this is an exception. haha.

i feel like going to the person's face and say this..

"Hye..meet my friend, her name is KARMA and she's a BITCH!!"

you when the say about karma, what goes around comes around and all that karma-ish stuff? today karma is on my side. and for that person, eat your heart out.

ok, nak pi nyanyi lagu karma alicia keys jap. jom join!!

"Karma"

Weren't you the one who said that you don't want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave
Now you're Talking bout a family
Now you're saying I complete your dreams
Oh
Now you're sayin I'm your everything
You're confusing me
What you saying to me, don't play wit me, don't play wit me
Cause....

[Chorus:]
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin', desirin' to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now who's cryin, desirin', to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o'clock in the 'morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like I'm just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when it's time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, you're confusin me
Don't play with me don't play with me cause

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o'clock in the 'morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasn't long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasn't easy believe me
Never thought you'd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what you're supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz I'm over you

[Repeat Chorus]

Gotta stop trying to come back to me

[Repeat Chorus]

It's called Karma baby and it goes around

Avatar: The Last Airbender.

2010-09-06T04:49:00.002+08:00

i cant believe it,

i just finished watching Avatar: The Last Airbender cartoon, all three seasons of em. and i like it very much. or should i say, i loved it??!!??

the characters were fun and funny as compared to the movie. Aang was hilarious and naughty, in the movie Aang was like, as if he got something up his ass. thinking of it again, what do u expect from M. Night Shyamalan. he is like the most depressing person on earth..

in the movie the tone were too stressed-out and everything was so serious, in addition, it was cut too short that many of the amazing thing in the series were not portrayed. its like he picked all the wrong things to be put inside the movie and left all the exciting things out.

somebody please call Michael Bay!!

after watching all three seasons, now i wish i can bend something. it will be cool if i could bend air.. at least i wont be late for Madam Gheeta's Class.. and just jump up and down anywhere, everywhere.

you know what would be even better? i could bend love.. so yeah i could change people's feeling.. to love and to care. that would be amazing..! and i could have my own movie!!

Nazwan: The Last LoveBender.

and Mr. Shyamalan, not a chance in hell ur directing this movie.

hey u

2010-09-05T06:00:00.002+08:00

hey you..

i am extremely tired. my stress level is off the hook.. there's just tons to prepare before raya. and NO, i am not talking bout my raya preparation. not talking about finding bamboo for lemang, not talking about anyam ketupat, pasang lampu lip lap, change the curtains.. at least not yet.

i am talking about my assignments, presentations, tutorials, polls and so on. the datelines were back to back and to back.. as if they are not planning to end..

to add up to it the final exam is just effin' around d corner.. haish..

on top of all that more drama is coming my way.. well not much i can comment on that since im half punjabi so basically drama is in my blood. i can run, but i cant hide..

at times rase mcmnk jual perfume e kat depan Tangs.. hahah

peaCOCK.

2010-09-01T01:04:00.003+08:00

hello ~~peacocks~~ People.

i wanna share a fan made video of Katy Perry's Peacock song. i got it from Perez Hilton. it is extremely funny and queer. i REPEAT, QUEER!!

Warning: high voltage of gay themed actions ahead!!

That's So Raven.

2010-08-31T08:47:00.002+08:00

hey peeps..

here is the new vid for Raven (RuPaul's Drag Race, not the fat irritating one) she is doing an ad for the new Nip/Tuck..

on second thought, yeah the fat raven might be good for the Nip/Tuck ad as the "before" girl.. for the "before" and "after" segment.

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roti

2010-08-30T04:22:00.002+08:00

hey readers,

i would like to show a funny incident that happened to me last week. so as all of you know, last week, me and Aria buka puase at Al-Amar, Pavilion..

so in order to stroll the line of buffet food, we had to Q and wait for our turn.. we slowly pass tru everything.. from fruits, to some arabic fried thinggy and till we reach the bread section.. we had this conversation..

there was this white-ish bread that were taken off a charcoal oven and was served hot to the customers.

A: what is that?

N: i think its pita bread...if im not mistaken la..

A: what? pita bread?

N: yeah.. i suppose it is pita bread..

so, without our knowledge the chef overheard the conversation. he was bloody eavesdropping on us! haha.

C: yes this is pita bread. (looking at me smiling and continue..) in Malaysia we call it ROTI!

**LMFAO**

N: owhh ro.. ro.. ti.. owhh, now i know. (tahan gelak mode until sampai meja)

where do u think the chef thinks i am from? i suppose maybe Mexico or Venezuela.. :P

no more i love you's

2010-08-29T23:35:00.003+08:00

hey readers..

this song is one of my all time favorite. the last time i heard it was when i was small. suddenly i kinda remembered this song and it really fits my situation now.

its Annie Lennox's - No More I Love You..

I used to be lunatic
from the gracious days
I used to be woebegone
and so restless nights
My aching heart would bleed
for you to see
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing home whistling
buttonhole tunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

(The lover speaks about the monsters)

I used to have demons in my room at night
Desire,despair,desire,so many monsters
Oh but now...
(I don't find myself bouncing home whistling
buttonhole tunes to make me cry)

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

They were being really crazy
They were on the come.
And you know what mammy?
Everybody was being really crazy. Uh huh.
The monsters are crazy.
There are monsters outside.

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me in silence
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word

Outside the word

No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
The language is leaving me
No more "I love you's"
Changes are shifting outside the word left

how how i miss someone saying to me "i love you" haha..

buka-sana-buka-sini

2010-08-25T05:30:00.010+08:00

hey hey hey

one thing that i love about buke puasa is just simply when friends and family gather to buke and enjoy the meal together, sharing stories and all. so this post i am going to share some buke puasa stories i had recently.

Al-Amar

so last weekend, i went to buke puasa with Aria ~~Putri~~ Putra.. i kinda ajak Mira Sue tp die kekwat. so berdua je bersama Aria. lama dah tak lepak with Aria, so ni kira balas dendam la..

we kinda roamed the entire Pavilion in search of place for buka. the bloody Tony Roma's was kinda fully booked. so in the end, the buffet at Al- Amar was very tempting. so we decided that we would try the Lebanese cuisine for buka.

the price was reasonable for me since there were quite a variety of food. it was only 65++ (RM). the food for me was ok. it is for those who likes the middle eastern taste.

kalau you guys tak prefer better not la. sebab the taste is very arabic. ala- ala lepas makan bole terus tarik surah Al- Ma'idah.

and it was cool that there was this arab performer who entertained us during the meal. so kalau feeling-feeling Pascal Mashalani (mampos la ejaan die) bole jugak belly dance.

Dubrovnik

restaurant ni hasil i tengok kat Jalan-Jalan Cari Makan. so since me, Johan, Ass and Apai nak meet up for buke and hang out, i decided to book a place there. the event includes Johan's Birthday!

it is located in Soho KL, Mont Kiara.

the food was amazing. i really loved it. After having Lebanese on Friday, the next day i flew to Croatia for a Croatian cuisine..

i had this Pacca chicken that is cooked for three hours in a wooden oven.. it was so tender and moist. we enjoyed our food and the ambiance is really relaxing..

the next best thing about it was the service. the hostess cum waitress cum PRO was really polite and she understood the menu well. she is well versed with the food there. so u can ask her for recommendations and get a pretty good feed back.

Hotel Seri Malaysia, Melaka

Abang D called me and asked me to buka puasa there. they had a buffet of 150 dishes it seems. it is Malaysian Cuisine and i didnt expect much..

but as soon as i arrived, the ambiance was different that what it used to be.. there were plenty selections of food and drinks.. local savories like pengat was also there.

i ate like a pig. Rima and Rai who accompanied me do share the same comments.

but sorry i left my cam at home for this one. so no pic.

I Like The Way You Lie.

2010-08-24T04:46:00.002+08:00

at first i din quite like this song, but now i am kinda enjoying it..

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

i love the way this song expresses the love of the dude. it doesnt matter how bad, or how ugly the relationhsip is, they are willing to fight for each other.

when will i get someone to fight for me instead.....?

.love.

2010-08-19T23:44:00.002+08:00

hey readers,

i cant wait for the weekend.. i am meeting the ones i love. Johan, Apai, Ass and even F. dah lame gile x keluar dengan F.. i finally managed to book him for a buka puasa. right after he balik kerja. how yummy to see him in his kemeja..

the last time we went on our date he was still this uni kid. how fast time flies.

the event for us that saturday is to celebrate johan's upcoming birthday. terpaksa celebrate awal and since i am only available this weekend, so why not.

for now, i am done with all my midterms and i have 4 more assignments to go, so i am hoping to get all that covered within this 2 weeks. please god give me strength..

ouh ya.. i have nothing to wear for the weekend.. anyone nak pinjamkan baju??

totally.slammed.you.

2010-08-19T05:34:00.002+08:00

hey readers,

this time around i would like to share a conversation i had with a friend of mine, M.

few days ago, like maybe a week, me, rai n rima went to watch the expendables. during sahur, M joined us and so i was sharing the review of the movie..

N: .... it was like a bunch of out of job actors decided to get together and make a movie. it was dead boring.. hah! and this one scene where Bruce Willis was there with Arnold..

M: he is dead.. (muke kompiden abes..)

N: (still continuing..) i have no idea what the scene is for, like one scene and thats it..

M: OMG, i like totally slammed you ( superbitchydivaattitude)

N: eiihh.. ko ni ape kena?? (meluat abes)

M: he is dead right, the actor si Jet Li..

N: who is dead?

M: Bruce LEE.. he is dead, the chinese guy is Jet Li..

N: hunny, i was talking about Bruce Willis, not Bruce Lee.

it was hilarious, you should see his confidence when he said " OMG, i totally slammed you!" it was like a rush of satisfaction. i cannot stop laughing everytime i have a flash back..

moral of the story is, before u "confidently" slam some one, make sure u know what ur slamming. if not ur just gonna get slammed right back in ur face. right M? ahaha

Ghaibmu

2010-08-15T02:11:00.003+08:00

hey readers..

so, macamane puase so far? i hope none had missed any days so far.. well, in this post, i wanna share a song. lagu ni mcm agak outdated la jugak, but suddenly i suke. haha.

the song is Ghaib by Imran Ajmain..

Biar ghaib mu suatu misteri
Tiada ku mencari sebarang pembayang lagi
Biar ia bertanda tanya saja
Hati ku dah lama bertitik noktah

Biar, biar lah berlalu
Biar, biar lah begitu
Biar waktu mengubat rindu
Tiada ku mencari sebarang penawar pilu
Biar lah mereka tertanya-tanya
Hati ku dah lama berganti arah

Bridge
Mana pergi janji
Setia di sisi
Hanya aku yang tertunggu-tunggu
Waktu pun berjalan
Tak berkesempatan
Kau hilang tanpa pesanan

Biar ghaib mu suatu misteri
Tiada ku mencari sebarang pembayang lagi

imagine.this.

2010-08-10T02:28:00.003+08:00

i know there will be major consequences after making this post, but ill shoot myself if i dun write it out....

every single person in this world likes to imagine things. when we are sitting alone in our room, we let our imagination run free.. we let it be wild.. we will be what we choose to be. that is a reality..

I like to imagine i am a supermodel everytime i do my hair infront of the mirror.. ill smize all the way and pose. as if there is a photographer taking pictures of me..

i know when miss Rai is alone, she imagines that she is a billionaire.. flying coast to coast.. jet setting.. designer's top-to-toe.

i know Myer will imagine that he is on the stage of the world, when he is alone.. the comb becomes the microphone, the room becomes the stage.. and terus die tarik lagu " I Have Nothing"

i know Jason Wee always imagine that he is a straight guy when he is alone. hahahha..

i am sure Atyn, imagines that she is a princess when she is alone. living in a castle and waiting her prince charming to save her and take her away on a unicorn..

i am very sure when Teha is alone she imagines that she lives in a world where everything is edible.

those are amongst the imagination i can come up with.. but what i am about to share goes beyond all that.. the imagination is so wild that it makes Emily Rose looks like a loser.

i have a fren and we shall refer to the fren as X. what happened is simple.. this friend of mine have a facebook account, and the fb is being used to express her imagination...

she imagines that she is 5'11"

she imagines that she is a supermodel

she imagines that she is extremely beautiful

she imagines that she is a billionaire

she imagines that she has a BMW

she imagines that Amber Chia is envy of her beauty

she imagines that Bonia is actually a designer label

she imagines that she has a friend who is a jet setter

having imaginations are good.. it pushes ur creativity and drives u towards achieving your gold. it gives u a boost of confidence that many of us need.

but the downfall is, when u take ur imagination into reality and act as if the imagination is a part of reality.. this is very inception..

when we fail to differentiate between our imagination and reality is a sign that we should be awaken from the dream. because, imagination is a reality from the spectrum of our eyes, but in the eyes of others... we are just psychotic. that is why our fantasies should never be a part of our reality.

it should be ours, it should be in our scope of knowledge and it should be our getaway when the walls on this side of the world is tumbling down on us. it is our hideout until we find the courage to face reality..

with that being said, X may not be a supermodel.. but people is talking about her like she is one.. maybe if we pretend, a part of our reality may come true.

DISCLAIMER: even the character X may seem familiar to any of you, but she is not who you think she is.. X is my friend and she is not yours!!!!

fly by..

2010-08-10T00:53:00.004+08:00

hello readers.

assalamualaikum.. (sambil betulkan tudung Sudan ala Mira Sue)

it is amazing how time flies by you.. and tomorrow will be the last day i will have lunch. for a month at least..

i am excited for the fasting month.. i really am. it is the only time where i can feel and be "sin-less"... if you know what i mean..

well, fasting month is also the only time where i can get my friends to makan at 4 am without complaining.

so, i guess to all my readers, Happy Fasting and may the month brings you 1001 ways to get ur self closer to Allah SWT. amin.

tomorrow, i will be going back to seremban for my sister's food testing at Klana Hotel Seremban. the reception is less then one month. so have to teman my mum.. then i will have the first sahur in Seremban, but after that i am back to Melaka for buka puasa.

my mum will be flying off to Penang at 11 am. so she wont be home for buka puasa. bummer. i would love to have a home cooked meal for buka puasa.. but thats not going to happen. so i guess, air tangan annei kedai mamak will have to do...

if you are expecting me to cook myself, well, i am planning to fast the entire month, full.. diarrhea is not in the tentative..

KL

2010-08-09T01:57:00.003+08:00

last week...

i had a fabulous time in KL with Johan. i went there after the Pidato in UKM and i spent a night there..

the night was filled with pillow talk.. the topic shifted from love, studies, future career, sex and also the people we hate.

it was so much fun since he is like the only guy i bare it all out.. everything A to Z.

the next day we went to pavilion. for lunch and movie.. we watched Salt that day.. KL was fine.. hectic as usual.. agak lama jugak i din roam around kl with a friend. kalau pergi pun i will go with my family..

the story i wanna tell is......

i have my own insecurities, but the other day i was in KL it was like a slap on the face, or should i say a kick, added with a somersault by someone weights 195kgs on my face... why?

1. after getting the movie tickets, we went to Carl's Junior to grab lunch. i was craving for it. dah lama gile i tak makan CJ. and as soon as i reached the counter the waiter said that the beef are all finish. WTF. gila sentap i time tu.

2. G-Themed couple is not an alien thing in KL. they are so common, its like seeing Britney throwing something at a paparazzi. so everytime me and Johan pass by a G themed couple, the fact that i am STILL SINGLE bothers me. its like i just came to a sudden realization that i am alone and single. not a good feeling..!

3. walking in Pavilion makes seeing guys with hot bods seems s easy. it is like they are everywhere... they are like handphones.. everyone has one now.. and when i look at my body not a good sign.. it is not even in the same zip code as HOT!

4. i went to ZARA and the shoes were madly on sale.. so i was trying few pairs, and this one pair that i tried was so hot that i had to have em.. then, i took a moment of silence to realize that i dun have the right pants to pair the shoes with.. amen. so it means that i need to redo my wardrobe. a wardrobe intervention..

5. so i wanted to buy new pants and tops, i checked my wallet and the term insufficient fund fits right in.. with 200 ringgit what can i get? where do i think i am? Bundle?

gosh, that is why i am slowly doing my personal intervention.. the result? i cant say when and how it will turn out. but we will see..

will my insecurities kill me or make a better me.. ?

and here we go... AGAIN!

2010-08-07T02:26:00.002+08:00

hey readers..

yesterday i had an argument with my ex bf. i have been tossing round and round on the idea if i should post this up or not.. but since i named it NAZWAN: STRIPP3D NAK3D, it would fit the purpose to bare it all out.

it started out with a normal conversation and we were talking.. and suddenly he felt that a comment that i made in general was directed to him! for no reason!

i know i can be a bitch in many circumstances, but trust me i had already moved on and i am not interested to bring new issues up. that is decided when i said to myself it is ok to be friends with him..

tiba-tiba die bukak ayat jiwang like how he cherished our relationship and all.. ok, i flop!

to all you people out there, once u dump a person, you loose the special privilege to use that sentence. especially when the break up was bad and ugly. when u dump a person, so many times, it means you had gave up on the relationship and that is not ok and it is not cool at all.

so bile die start bukak ayat macam tu, i lost it. its like someone pressed a switch inside me, and i didnt stop rebutting him left and right.

and as usual he ran... CLICHE much?

well, he said that i havent change, for all that i know, he is the one who is still the same. everytime there is a problem he runs away..

i didnt want it to turn out that way.. but i wont sit and be dumb ass like i used to and take all the blame.. i had moved on and what ever i say or do had never intentionally resembled what we have.

but he on the other hand always try to relate it to what we had in the PAST! i repeat, PAST! if you have an insecurities problem or what so ever that is going on inside of you, resolve that first.. dun blame and hate the world, for things that you cant resolve yourself.

stop blaming me for moving on
stop blaming me that you cant move on
stop blaming me for what had happened
stop blaming me that things aint going well in ur life
stop blaming me for everything!

I DON'T DESERVE TO BE BLAMED.. at least not after a year..

Daddy's Little Boy

2010-08-07T02:00:00.003+08:00

i have a confession..

i FORGOT my dad's birthday yesterday..!! i have been banging my head on the wall since just now. i just remembered when my mum reminded me just now when they came to Melaka.

i am not the type that forgets birthday of the important people in my life.. especially my mum or dad. but it just slipped off my mind.

so i bought him a Polo Black perfume as a gift (there goes my perfume that ive been dying to have) and also i paid for the dinner, out of guilt.

top 5 reasons why u should not forget you dad's birthday:

1. he is ur dad for god's sake. unless you have a dysfunctional relationship with your dad that is (but at certain level even that is not a defense). he is the most important man in your life and you should not forget. amnesiac are forgiven. but "we" (read: people who had ever forgotten their dad's birthday) the ones with fully functional body and brains, shame on us!

2. if you forget, then you will have to get him expensive presents simply because the guilt will drive you to get one. if you had remembered, even a simple wish will be the prefect gift! but not anymore, say goodbye to anything u have been saving for.

3. dinner is on you. out of the guilt..again, you will pay for the dinner or at least dutch in a huge some of money. and there goes my saving for a brand new battery for my MacBook. amen to that..

4. you then have to get something for your mum. when you guve ur dad the expensive gift, try giving a glance at ur mum.. she will have this look:

"owh, i get a lousy kiss and hug, he gets a Polo fragrance?"

well, that look will not put u at ease. so there goes more money to get your mother something.

5. it drains u financially! period! and that is not what you want to happen!

haha.. ok, to my dad, he will never read this coz he is not suppose to know i forgot!!

.10 ways to say Bye Bye.

2010-08-03T02:37:00.003+08:00

i have been writing this for a very long time. i just dont have the courage until today to publish it. its 10 ways that you can use to get over a previous relationship.

well, trust me, my experience in this area is undeniable.

1. Memories. We can't deny that being In a relationship had developed memories. this is usually the hardest reason to get over a person. But praised the lord for bad memories too. Use the bad memories that you have with your ex inorder to get over him. The arguments, the flirting, the anniversary he forgets.. Anything will do.

This helps as it psychologically allows you to rationalize that the relationship is not all rainbows and butterflies. There were negetive elements too.. letting go of the memories and what you had with him is not an easy step.. the period varies from days to years..

it depends on many external factors, but most importantly you are the one who pushes to erase the memory off.

2. Present is the past. One of the ways that you might wanna try is that to do harmful things to the presents that your ex gave you. Like tear off the ~~shit~~ shirt he gave you. Cut off the head of the Teddy bear he gave you.

Once when I was in high school I shred apart a turtle neck sweater that my ex gave and I wrote fuck you on the sweater before returning it to him. It made me feel hella good. it was hideous btw.

This is not a classy way to go, not even in the same zip code. it will be a good solution if the break up was a real bad one. like he cheated on you.. or something like that. but under normal circumstances, i wont advise.

3. I am ...... Brand new! We can't deny that when we are in a relationship we tend to forget about ourselves and that leave us neglecting. the focus is all about "us".. "Us" this, "us" that.. till there's no room for "me".

So here is your time to have a make over. go do ur nails and hair, have a me time. Go shop for a brand new outfit and pamper urself. or even better, go do what ur ex forbids you when you were in the relationship..

like, if he says no piercing, go get one. he says dun cut ur hair, go chop it all offf.. SIMPLE!

U just got out of a "prison" so enjoy the freedom. You are putting urself back in the market so you better make yourself hot hot hot!!

4. Girlfriends! A night out with your friends does help. Go for a fabulous dinner at the "hip-pest" place in town and after that get all dolled up and hit the clubs. the time spent with friends, just sitting and talking will save you a fortune on therapy bills.

5. Let it all out. If you wanna cry just sit down and cry your lungs out.. it will make you feel ok. Watch all the sad movies u want, listen to all the heart broken songs u want. Cry until there's no more tears to cry. It clears off your heart and does make u feel better. Don't keep anything inside you. This enables you to move on from the past.

but with that being said, it has limits.. do it with a friend, or just for one night.. dun lock urself up in the room for days and cry. that is soo not healthy..

6. Vitamin C. I am not talking about the usual or standard vitamin C that you consume or the one u inject inside you, I am talking about chocolate. It sort of has this magic healing power that heals you from the pain and sorrow you are in. I have no idea how the chamicelals works but it can do wonders. So just get a simple choc bar, get a big fat bar if the break up is a bad one.

well, if you cant eat it anymore, it is a good ammo to throw at ur ex.

7. Get a brand new boyfriend. This is major step in forgetting ur ex. It shows that you have already moved on a and is also ready for a brand new relationship. At this point there is a possibility that the guy might Just be ur rebound guy. But hey, why not if it works. And who knows that one day the rebound guy that you choose is the one that sticks with you till the end (wishful thinking much)

But I was lucky enuff to find my guardian angel that gave me strength to move on from the disaster I was in.

8. V is for Vacation! This applies for people who had just broken up from a long relationship. 5 or 6 years maybe. you need ur time to get yourself together. It would be really hard to part with something that had been a part of u for quite sometime.

So going on a holiday will definitly help u ease up a little bit and help you to get a brand new perspective in life. Figure out what ur planning to do next. very Miss Bradshaw!

But if baru kapel sebulan dua ke, tak payah la smp nak pergi holiday Bagai. Feeling sajorhh..

9. Have lots of flings and sex. Well, this is suggested by a Friend of mine, honestly! and, according to him it helps. Have tons of fling to take ur mind off him. It might not make u forget about him, but it does allow u to take ur mind off the issue.

It's like temporary drugs with no side effects (if u play safe at least). But getting a fling is not that easy. So, unless u are really hot, I advise u to skip this one. I am being honest, and talking from experience..

10. Stop stalking, it's not cute.. Seriously people after the break up do not stalk his facebook, blog, my space, friendster or what so ever profile that he have.. It doesn't help at all when u stalk.

Comparing urself with his new lover or what so ever is not in! Ignore his profiles and if he have someone new just be happy for him and handle it professionally. or at least be professional in public.

There's abso-fucking-lutely no need for u to add the new lover and being a bitch to the new one. It won't help u move on and it changes people's perception towards you.

What they will think now is "no wonder he left u, psychotic bitch!"

Well, some say that you can never move on, even u have left that person for many years there's this tiny part of u that will still remember that person.

True or not it's for u to consider, but here is a tiny little help for u to get ur self on ur feet back!

long

2010-08-01T15:45:00.003+08:00

i think, this is my longest absent from updating my blog. honestly i dont know what have gotten into me. the mood to write is not there. the mood express seems so far away.

i tried to publish short posts like some bloggers, but i just cant. i need to write an entire essay, thn only i'll feel ok to post it out..

so below ill give points on what you guys have missed about moi!

i. i am currently back in melaka preparing myself for classes after my mid sem break.

ii. MMU went to quarter finals for the Debat Alam Sekitar 2010 in UMT. we lost to UTP in the quarters. deserving? no we dont deserve the lost, but its its their luck. and i ve made some new personal achievements there..

iii. i foolishly entered a public speaking competition in UKM which i deservedly lost. who am i kidding. its not my up of tea. but i did fairly well..

those are the big agenda that filled my calendar.. of course there were midterms, meet ups and also small events which i think i had forgotten what and where.

so, if u wanna know what i am up to, do follow me on twitter k.. search nazwankamal.

UMT

2010-07-14T20:55:00.000+08:00

Hello readers,

At this very moment I am making my way to UMT in terengganu with the MMU Contingent for the 2010 Debat Alam Sekitar.. We are now in the van, and I am so thankful that there's only four people in the van. Me, rafiq, dheepan and fuad!

Its weird travelling to a debate competition without myer. But what to do, we gonna have to face the challenge ourselves.

And its time for me to challenge myself and take control of a team. So I hope that we will have a safe journey and I hope that this year the trophy comes home with us. Amen.

Go MMU Go!

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Terkejut!

2010-07-05T11:12:00.000+08:00

Hello readers,

I can tell you, final year is a living hell.

I am so busy, with tutorials, classes, revisions, debates that I have no time for myself!

I have to start revising from now sebab my debate and midterms is like around the corner and they are like one day after another.

Plus final year subjects are quite hard that they need my extra attention in order just to develop understanding je!

So after this, u guys will get short updates from my bb and sometimes from the web!

Other than that I can't promise sebab takut I can't fulfil it :)

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Exhausted!

2010-06-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

Hello readers..

I am currently exhausted from all the cases and presentations and debate practises!

My schedule is packed and I'm adding up to it like nobody's business. When they said that final year is a bitch, they are not lying!

The worst part is not the physical exhaustion but its the mental one that is killing me. I have to consume zillions of procedures in PP. Prepare for procedural classes and also read mind torturing facts for the DAS.

Thus explaining the MIA from blog updates! I will be back...... I HoPe!

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YOU LOST ME!

2010-06-24T02:43:00.001+08:00

I am done
Smoking gun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

She has won
Now its no fun
We've lost it all
The love is gone

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

I feel like our world's been infected,
And somehow you left me neglected

We've found our lives been changed
Babe, you lost me

And we tried
Oh, how we cried
Oh, we lost ourselves
The love has died

And we had magic
And this is tragic
You couldn't keep your hands to yourself

Oh, I feel like our world's been infected
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Cause babe, you lost me

Now I know you're sorry
And we were sweet
Oh, but you chose lust when you deceived me
And you'll regret it, but it's too late
How can I ever trust you again?

I feel like our world's been infected,
And somehow you left me neglected
We've found our lives been changed
Oh babe, you lost me

Sex and The CIty 2.

2010-06-18T03:17:00.005+08:00

hello readers.

it had been a while since i last went out with my girls, for a dinner and chit chat and for a good movie. tonight i had it all. my beloved girlfriends, a good dinner, fabulous dessert and a FREAKING MARVELOUS movie.

Sex and The City 2 is one of the movie i have been anticipating for a very long time. the day it was announced that they were making a sequel, it was in my fashion bible, a must watch movie.

SATC 2, are like Transformers for gays! can i have an amen in here.

i planned the perfect night for all for of us. first dinner at Amigos. i had at least some good food for myself. the potato baked chicken was amazing.!!

after that for dessert, Mega took us to this cafe in jonker called Calanthe.. and dear lord the desserts were amazing. i had this Swiss chocolate cheese cake and it was really good.

and as for the movie review, i loved it! what can i say. it was funny, fun and interesting. i was laughing all over the place. and like myer said, u will curse the entire movie.

and i did cursed, for 2 reasons. the men and the fashion. can somebody please yell AMEN!

the fashion was no doubt fabulous. and the luxuries, it takes u off ur zen and atmosphere for a moment. it gives u a glimpse of what luxury is, especially when u fly 1st class. and the dresses on Miranda is to die for!

and the second thing that i would love to compliment is the music selection! i loved it, from the funky beat of alicia keys to the sexy arabic beat, it was all working for me. i enjoyed each tune being played.

and the fact that the movie doesnt evolves around ONLY carrie anymore makes it a whole lot interesting.

and did i mention that i loved Miranda's outfit?

for all you ladies out there, grab ur girlfriends and spent a night out for urself and for old times sake.

SEX AND THE CITY 2, i heart u, 5/5 STARS!!!!

.license.

2010-06-17T17:35:00.002+08:00

hello readers..

i am proud to announce that i am no more a P license holder. i am now a permanent license holder. after suffering with P for 2 years, at last i am a full grown driver. haha

now i can curse the other P driver without worrying or having to glance at the GIGANTIC RED P sticker on my windshield.

one thing that i love about Malacca is that the government department bole buat kerja cepat and efisyen. like kalau nak buat ic, 2 jam the real ic boleh siap. and mase i buat license hari tu, i punya number ade like 60 people ahead of me. but still within 30 mins semua dah siap da!

and i wanna thank Myer for accompanying me to go get the license changed.

.hell.

2010-06-13T15:27:00.002+08:00

hey readers,

i was down with fever and purging. hence, the drought of updates. and i am not going to apologize for that. haha.

since last tuesday, i was down with fever, had to go to the clinic twice to take my blood. i was suspected for dengue. nasib baik nothing serious. just normal viral fever.

and so after nearly a week of suffering, the fever is no more there, but i am still weak and also the constant headache is still effecting me. but still, i cant miss anymore classes so i have to be strong for my classes..

so i went back to seremban for the weekend for a back up! i really needed my mommy during the sickness. when i was in Melaka i was not eating well, so by making my way home, i know ill be in the best hands. and, indeed i was.

thanks mom! love u a bunch!

.freshies.

2010-06-07T15:34:00.002+08:00

hey readers.

i was in campus today for lunch with Myer, Rai and Madam Asmida. its a brand new semester, brand new academic year and it means brand new juniors.

so as i was sitting and ~~cuci mata-ing~~ analyzing the juniors, i realised a few things that distinct the freshmen from the seniors.

1. NAME TAG. its funny how they actually clipped their name tag on and follow orders. when i was a junior i remembered that my name tag was a decoration on the table. nothing more. the name tag is like a visa for them. once not displayed, theyll be kicked out.

2. the MMU bag. seriously! every year if u enroll urself into MMU, ull get this hideous bag as a gift. the message was, take the bag, and burn them up! but this junior thinks that by using the bag it makes them more trendy someway. its like their very own Berkin!

3. the FLOCK. the other easy identification of the juniors is that they travel in flocks. this is simply because they just got to know each other and its to soon for anyone to stab on anyone's back yet. so yeah, you can see them traveling in flocks, with their dangling ids and MMU bag!

4. the OUT-FIT. its undeniable, the freshmen dressing is still innocent and somewhat polite looking. the tudung still "full-coverage", they button up, tucked in, those free hair ones, still no cleavage visible. almaklum la still fresh!

5. the HAPPINESS. the juniors are the happiest bunch! they just made it into a uni with rocket flying grades. well, they have no clue that the lecturer were paid to make their lives miserable. wait until u meet Miss Sik or Mr Tay. then ull know nothing much to smile about.

Arau Open 2010

2010-06-07T01:40:00.005+08:00

once, MMU had held the Trophy of Arau Open Debate. and i was one of the speakers. it was the first victory we ever tasted in a varsity debate.

this year we went with the same hope. but the burden was on the shoulders of our juniors. unfortunately hope and dreams on its own is not sufficient to take back the trophy. so they left empty handed.

but for myself, it was a different story. i manage to learn so many thing through out the entire event. i was one of the judges. and judging taught me so many things.

secondly, spending time with my lovely friends like Mira Sue, Remmy and Shebby was just amazing. and i have to thank the UKM team for allowing me to ride back to KL with them. walaupun perjalan berjam-jam itu melelahkan, tapi i had so much fun!! thanks guys!

and benda paling best was, i was chosen to judge the final match! Raja Muda Perlis attended the event.. and for my Uni's name to be mentioned in front of the Raja Muda was amazing. mase jalan nak pergi amek cenderamata kena sembah the Raja Muda, i was shaking.. i was more nervous for this compared to be a finalists itself.

and i wanna congratulate UiTM Kedah for the well deserved Victory!

so here are some pics in arau.. :)

the journey back.

the FINAL dinner

the PADANGBESAR trip

the OPENING dinner

the JUDGES

recap.recap

2010-06-07T01:27:00.002+08:00

hello readers..

all right, i am now back in Melaka and currently preparing for my final year subjects. my class starts tomorrow. and i cant believe this that i am currently a final year student. woot-woot!!

so in this post i will intro what i will do next in my blog.

first and foremost, i PASSED all my papers for last sem, aminnn!!! i cant thank God enough. i know that i am not the most obedient hamba he have, but i am still thankful that he still blesses my exam results.

so i will update next on

1. Arau Open

2. Genting Trip

3. PETAH

and if i sempat i will review few movies. so just keep your finger crossed k!

FUN

2010-05-27T15:01:00.002+08:00

hello readers,

i had so much fun in Genting with Shebby and Mira Sue. will upload some pics soon. my camera is with shebby or mira. cant remember.

paling penting is that i got to drive miss shebby's new honda city! omg, its such a gorgey car. im lovin it.

right now i am in UPM and was suppose to depart to PETAH half hour ago. still waiting for mira sue to pick me up :)

well, will get back to u guys really soon!

Holidayeee!!

2010-05-26T07:12:00.000+08:00

Hello readers,

As many of u is aware of, I just got back from Arau Open Debate Competition in Arau, Perlis.

I was not able to update my blog as I was still too exhausted from the journey. The actual plan was, I was suppose to go to Penang after Arau, but I had a change of plan at the very last minute thanks to Mira and Shebby.

The first reason is that I am going to go to the PETAH event at PWTC this thursday. The event is the 111 hours of non stop debating that will be recorded in the Malaysian Book of Records. I missed the first time it was held, the 100 hours non-stop debate.

The second reason is that I am going to Genting with miss Mira Sue and Shebby! We had planned so many get away together but was unfortunate. This may not be the dream holiday, but at least we are spending some quality time together!!

So right now at this very moment I am in the Komuter making my way to UKM to meet miss Mira and straight to UPM to get miss Shebby!

I promise that I will update on the A0 Debate as soon as possible. I have a huge story to share with all of u!! So do wait for my next post!!

MEMO: Remmy LaLa.. I miss u hun!!

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cant sleep

2010-05-19T03:52:00.002+08:00

hello readers,

right here in Penang, me and my family are staying over at my sisters place. so it means that we have to share sleeping spot with other family members. the house aint exactly a huge gigantic mansion. but better thn nothing.

i have to share the living room with my dad. basically living room is the best place since there is where the tv is located. so i can sleep late and watch tv without bothering anyone.

unfortunately right now, i cant sleep because of my dad's snoring is really loud. at moments, i feel like mcm i am at a very busy harbor with ships coming in and out. and i am in Penang. how ironic.

terus i terbayang i kat kota Melaka, tengah feeling2 PGL sambil kapal dagang keluar masuk. i terus bukak step asmaradana. KAU MAMPU?

hence, i am up frigging early in the morning updating my blog.

MEMO: you know what they say, who needs an alarm clock when ur father is doing a better job then one.

on Twitter..

2010-05-17T09:23:00.001+08:00

hey readers,

ive been on twitter for quite sometime but i dare not inform the world about it. but since now i am actively tweeting, so why not follow me and get to know update on my unfabulous life.

nazwankamal.

see u guys there..

Robin Hood The Movie

2010-05-16T19:13:00.002+08:00

i got the chance to catch Robin Hood right after my exams.

as for me the movie was ok. it was quite slow for my liking. since it was the introduction of how robin became robin hood.

the beginning was packed with action, unfortunately the middle was flat and a little boring, filled with chatting and chatting and chatting.. when its back to the end, it was again packed with actions.

overall, the movie as ok, watchable with funny scenes and witty lines. so if u had just finished ur exams and u have tons of plenty times. so go watch the movie urself..

a 3.8/5.

Car Wash.

2010-05-16T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hello readers..

I am now at the car wash still waiting for my car. The car was extremely dirty and it really needed a wash.

So here I am waiting for the frigging slow workers to finish the job. Plus I do need a clean car for a 4 hour journey to Penang.

Fyi, seremban is so so hot! The heat is killing me. Can't we like glass up Malaysia and install a gigantic ac?

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15.05.10

2010-05-16T03:10:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

today i am extremely happy.. i really am.. it has been a while since i am as happy as this. i cant take the smile off my face..

shh.. ill have to kill u if i tell u :)

back back

2010-05-15T16:40:00.002+08:00

hello beautiful people.

i am back in seremban for now. i am soo thankful that my exams are all over. at last a few weeks to inhale and exhale without suffocating myself with exams, books or assignments.

i was not able to update since i left my broadband in seremban.. so i cant go online. plus with the exams all around the corner. it was not a fun week to update my blog i suppose..

but now i am back at home and i am sure to update this blog more often. hehe. promise!

so on monday i am off to Penang, and after that to Arau. gosh i cant wait to get back into the debate scenario. i MISS DEBATING!!

even i am going as a judge, but i dont mind.

i screwed up.

2010-05-07T05:02:00.002+08:00

hello readers.

well, i am here to inform that i screwed up my Company Law 2 exam. this would be the first time i am flunking a paper.

there are so many reasons that contributed for my failure to excel in this subject. but at the top of the list is my mistakes and failure to prepare myself for the finals.

i made a decision to attend to a family matter a week before my exams. and the mistake was mine as i was the one who made the decision.

this saturday is my sister's akad nikah, and yes, none of you are invited. haha. i seriously dun feel like going back pun sebab i want to focus for my up coming 4 pprs.. but nak tak nak kena jugak balik seremban.

so i really hope i will not be side tracked with the wedding and all..

on your marks.. get set..

2010-05-05T05:54:00.002+08:00

hello readers,

i hate this part right here. as nicole pcd would say, the part where i have a zillion things to update on, but i just cant because its EXAM WEEK!

the week where i have the urge to update my blog 29 times a day just simply because i dont want to memorize cases. noble aim indeed.

yup, it finally had began.. i am sure that its not too late to wish all of my classmates and fellow MMU students all the best and good luck..

My first paper is Company Law, today at 9 am. pray for my success people.

last but not least, GO~!!

MEMO:may the force be with me.

Impossible- Shontelle

2010-05-04T02:36:00.001+08:00

loving this new beat by Shontelle..

Impossible lyrics

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy (i was happy)
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

Not Myself Tonight.

2010-05-03T03:28:00.001+08:00

one word, LOVE!

Breakfast at Saadon Food Court.

2010-04-28T10:41:00.000+08:00

Good morning readers,

I had a fabulous breakfast at Saadon Food court in Gelugor just a few moments ago.

No one can deny that penang is a food heaven and I was in heaven just now.

Serabai, nasi tomato, murtabak.. Just name it :)

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Penang.Again

2010-04-28T05:00:00.002+08:00

good morning readers,

currently i am in Penang to attend to some family matters here.. i am in my study week. kalau ikutkan hati memang i will never leave melaka. but unfortunately this matter demands me to be here in Penang.

so nak tak nak i kena pulun la study kat penang ni dulu before the last stretch nanti when i am back in Melaka.

i love being in Penang. bole la i study dengan tenang sikit kot kat sini (as if that will ever happen, theres like a gazillion temptation here!!)

so ill keep u guys updated as often as i can! :)

love, Naz.

MEMO: i wish bole buat study week in Bali. haha

Exams!

2010-04-21T09:21:00.000+08:00

final exams is approaching. So I need a pair of brand new brains of any lawyers who is a master in land law and company law.

Any takers??

I hope I can score for this semester. But the problem is I am freaking lazy to study! Haishh.. Lord please provide me with much rajin-ness.

Anyhow, I still have a few more days to start striving. So I guess its never too late people.

Later, I'm gonna go see my land law's assignment marks. To be honest I am not all that excited to check the marks out. I guess its not one of the assignment I am confident of.

I have slept the entire night preparing my case study. Its frigging long and my brains won't seem to register it. I dun frigging understand the case law.

So if I am choosen to present ill just use my cute and cuddly ability.. Lol!

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